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9th journal entry.
Mar. 22nd, 2015 11:31 pm3/22/2015
This is a lot harder than I thought it'd be. I feel like such a baby sometimes. It's one night he's not here. He's on Mor, we're not gonna leave him, we'll be okay.
Why does it feel like the ground keeps falling out from under my feet? It doesn't make sense. I shouldn't be this nervous over him leaving for one night. I thought I didn't need him to be right there anymore. I thought he was that driving force that kept me going.
But now that he's able to be right there again, I'm afraid of losing him. Nothing I do is going to stop that from happening. He'll be gone again someday. Maybe that's why I need him so bad right now.
This is my last chance to show him I didn't give up on me either.
This is a lot harder than I thought it'd be. I feel like such a baby sometimes. It's one night he's not here. He's on Mor, we're not gonna leave him, we'll be okay.
Why does it feel like the ground keeps falling out from under my feet? It doesn't make sense. I shouldn't be this nervous over him leaving for one night. I thought I didn't need him to be right there anymore. I thought he was that driving force that kept me going.
But now that he's able to be right there again, I'm afraid of losing him. Nothing I do is going to stop that from happening. He'll be gone again someday. Maybe that's why I need him so bad right now.
This is my last chance to show him I didn't give up on me either.
