We could be immortals.

3/22/2015

This is a lot harder than I thought it'd be. I feel like such a baby sometimes. It's one night he's not here. He's on Mor, we're not gonna leave him, we'll be okay.

Why does it feel like the ground keeps falling out from under my feet? It doesn't make sense. I shouldn't be this nervous over him leaving for one night. I thought I didn't need him to be right there anymore. I thought he was that driving force that kept me going.

But now that he's able to be right there again, I'm afraid of losing him. Nothing I do is going to stop that from happening. He'll be gone again someday. Maybe that's why I need him so bad right now.

This is my last chance to show him I didn't give up on me either.

3/15(16?)/2015

Tadashi is now a proud member of the SS Bishop's crew. He's also now the proud holder of the knowledge of his death, thanks to yours truly. Maybe I shouldn't have told him. Maybe I should have just let it go...

I thought I'd been revisiting all of that when I saw him here, but seeing him in person was worse. I miss Aunt Cass. I put her through so much. She already had to go through what I did when my parents died, losing Tadashi had to be even harder on her. Probably harder than it was on me... But she was still bringing me food and trying to get me out of the house. She was trying so hard, and I just kept shutting her down...

I should have been with her more. We could have gone through it together, and I think it wouldn't have been as bad.


Honey Lemon is here now. I'm really happy to see her, and I know I'll show it more later, but right now, I just hope she doesn't tell Tadashi about Callaghan...

3/13/2015

I met that Allen guy Ino keeps mentioning today. He's really cool. He asked me to build him a stereo.

[there's a doodle of a stereo here]



Tadashi still isn't off the Marsiva.

I miss him.

3/8/2015

Alarms work. The only thing that's left to do is hook the purple alarm up to the distress beacon, but we don't have anyone that can help me do that here yet. I got a guy who might hop ship, though.

Krista's making a library out of our civilian room. You know what that means, right? Time to invoke my awesomeness and continue to win over the hearts of my loyal crew!!

Alright, it's Krista's crew. She's the captain, now that Henry is gone. Merrill is too. Where do they go...? Is there somewhere inside the Marsiva that they're keeping these people when they take them off the ship? We're not supposed to go home unless we win this cycle, right? So they wouldn't just send them home... Where would the incentive be to win?

How do they get us here in the first place??? Sokka and I were talking about trying to figure out how to get home without winning. Imagine what we could do if we could figure out how to warp through dimensions?? He doesn't know much about my level of tech, but he's got an engineer's heart. He gets it. We're gonna see if we can figure something out.

I also met a guy named Kaneis Major today. If it weren't for the fact that his world doesn't have "Canis Major" the star, I wouldn't believe that's his real name. He says I could be dangerous when I'm old enough to start dating. Says I have a way with words. Maybe I should try a little harder???

No, Hiro. Science first. Come on.



I told someone about Tadashi today. Stephanie. She's really great. I told her she could help me build a computer filing system for Krista's library.

I've been thinking about this for over a month now. If the Atroma can take people from different times, isn't it possible that Tadashi could come here? He wouldn't be coming back from the dead, technically...

I have no idea what I would do...



NOTES:
-add filing system to to-do list
-add super secret safe to to-do list
-extra grow light for freaky plant dude that I TOTALLY HAVE TO MEET!!!
-make a playlist of stuff stephanie might like

2/20/2015

I decided I'd carry on the tradition of working out my thoughts in a journal now that I have the money. I'm going to get one for Nagito, but he sounds pretty serious about the whole "make sure no one can read it" thing. Don't think Tim would approve of keeping one, either, probably. Too open.

Speaking of Tim, wow. The guy's got a great head on his shoulders. Definitely the kind of person I want on my side. He and Ino both. They both have that "dangerous, but loyal" vibe going.

My crew seems pretty nice. I haven't really gotten to know any of them yet, though. Captain's a little weird.




NOTES:

-keep a To-Do list!!!!!!!!
-make that shower thing a priority, Ino will totally love you for it.